I will be thin.

day 1

Mon, 23 Jul 2012 18:35:56 -0400

didn’t get to do the tap out thing this morning but might be able to start it tonight. i have eaten avocado and a peach, and i drank only water. i am going to weigh myself later. i tryed giving myself red highlights but it doesnt look like it worked:(

i might do a picture everyday but this is me right now. maybe a...

Mon, 23 Jul 2012 01:17:08 -0400

i might do a picture everyday but this is me right now. maybe a little bit tinier. i took it in january but i am the same weight i was then.

Starting over

Mon, 23 Jul 2012 01:10:46 -0400

tommrow me and my mom are going to start this workout video called tap out. its suppose to do wonders! also i am on a all veggie/fruit & only water diet. Im going to start my weigh in tommrow morning and i will do the day counting thing again. hopefully i can reach 100 pounds by the start of school. if i am not near it like 2 weeks before school no more eating! also i am going to start going to the gym again when i am cleared to drive, since i am on pain killers.

day 5

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 19:11:34 -0400

havent eaten today and dont plan on it. weighed in at 137. NY bound tommrow:)

my mom bought me a supersize hershy bar and i didn’t eat it! almost threw it away but then i...

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 04:27:23 -0400

my mom bought me a supersize hershy bar and i didn’t eat it! almost threw it away but then i would feel bad for wasting her money.. so its just sitting in my desk cabinet.

day 4

Sat, 14 Jul 2012 21:40:00 -0400

today i ate. weighed in at 138.

day 3

Fri, 13 Jul 2012 23:15:45 -0400

i ate today. i know fatass. but tommrow it will be gym starve all day also sunday. then monday i go to new york so no eating from then to thursday when i get back. then friday i get my wisdom teeth out so no eating then for 3-5 days.. just drinking yay! i really love when my mouth hurts:)

day 2

Thu, 12 Jul 2012 18:02:19 -0400

today I failed myself. I told myself to eat today the you won’t eat for a week. whatever that was the last time I am ever talking myself into eating. I’m not going to bother to weigh myself today. I go to new york Monday so I won’t eat then and we get back Thursday then Friday I get my wisdom teeth out so I won’t have to eat for 3-5 days! yippie so if I start over tommrow that will be 10-12 days without eating! then I’m gonna start going to the gym and not eating when I feel better! I’m excited!:)

day 1

Wed, 11 Jul 2012 19:23:10 -0400

just weighed myself at 137. already lost 3 pounds!

day 1

Wed, 11 Jul 2012 18:30:00 -0400

i went to the gym for 2 hours then sat in the sauna for 20 minutes. i couldn’t handle 3 hours, but i am going to work my way up to it. i also get very bored at the gym. i haven’t weighed myself yet.

my fresh start

Wed, 11 Jul 2012 00:34:00 -0400

Weighed myself today.

140, i couldn’t believe it. i haven’t been this weight in almost a year. it was very depressing, but it did open my eyes to what i want and how to get it. this time is for real. no more giving up, no more saying i will start tommrow. this is it. this is the day my life will change forever. i plan on losing 60 pounds. because that is what will make me happy. and i plan on doing it in less then 3 months. i am gonna starve myself. and it will work i have done it before. i did only lose 10 pounds, but it did only take 5 days. i also didnt workout last time i did it, and i am going to workout this time. 7 times a week, 3 hours a day. and if i cant go for 3 hours, then at least 1 hour. no matter what. and i had a realization today. food is actually quite disgusting when you think about it. it has never done anything for me execpt cause me to gain weight, breakout, loose hope, and make me depressed. so goodbye food. this is my parting to you. i can’t and won’t ever be there for you again.( yes i will eat when it is ABSOULTLY necessary, but other then that, no. ) my goal weight is 80 pounds. i am 5’3” so that is a common weight for my height. when i reach it i am going to eat only fruits and veggies, and only water from now on till i die. i want to be at least 100 pounds by the time school starts, which is in 47 days. my parents might get suspicous but i think i can throw them off. also i am going to new york with only my mom next week and she will be too busy to notice i am not eating. then on the 20 i am getting my wisdom teeth out so for 3-5 days i wont even be able to eat! so yay for that! then when school starts i can bring a lunch and throw it away! easy as that…

well hopefully it works out! i am gonna blog my workout and weigh in every day.

lucky you ;)

Wed, 04 Jul 2012 03:36:00 -0400

lucky you ;)

Food Log Saturday-nothing Sunday-nothing Monday-nothing Tuesday-chips and salsa, grapes, cheese,...

Wed, 04 Jul 2012 00:03:25 -0400

Food Log

Saturday-nothing

Sunday-nothing

Monday-nothing

Tuesday-chips and salsa, grapes, cheese, goldfish, m&ms, 2 fruit twists

^ was a really bad thing and wont happen again, i promise you that.

havent written anything in awhile but I starved myself Saturday and Sunday last weekend then ate...

Sat, 23 Jun 2012 17:10:27 -0400

havent written anything in awhile but I starved myself Saturday and Sunday last weekend then ate Monday-Thursday and didn’t eat yesterday and haven’t eaten anything today. I hope I can continue to starve on.

hate myself.

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 00:57:00 -0400

hate myself.

haven’t eaten in two days! yaaay. now just 12 more days to go… started my period. thanks...

Tue, 12 Jun 2012 16:49:22 -0400

haven’t eaten in two days! yaaay. now just 12 more days to go… started my period. thanks mother nature. appreciate it!

ate

Sun, 10 Jun 2012 03:32:00 -0400

okay. so i ate like you wouldn’t believe today. i can’t even say what all i ate. it’s so stupid. well i’m staying up all night to burn off a few extra calories. then i am getting up early and going for a run. then i am not eating for the next two weeks!

i hate myself but i’m staying up all night to burn off some extra calories. also i am starting my...

Sat, 09 Jun 2012 04:27:18 -0400

i hate myself but i’m staying up all night to burn off some extra calories. also i am starting my only water diet today. which my be a little hard because it’s my sisters birthday and we have to go out to eat. but i will just say that i don’t feel good or something..

just ate like everything in my house. i hate myself so much! tommrow i’m starving and working...

Sat, 09 Jun 2012 00:49:52 -0400

just ate like everything in my house. i hate myself so much! tommrow i’m starving and working out. i need to be thing no matter what. it’s all i can think about.

all i want out of life is to feel alive.

Fri, 08 Jun 2012 02:20:01 -0400

all i want out of life is to feel alive.