i had been starving myself for 2 days. and today was day 3. but my parents made me go to eat and i went crazy. so i probablly gained back everything i lost. but i still have the whole summer to not eat. so yeah.
Thinspo Survey
Age: 16
Height: 5’ 3”
CW: 134 pounds
GW1: 120 pounds
UGW: 95 pounds
Favorite Diet Food: fruits
Favorite Binge Food: pizza
Favorite exercise: running
Does anyone know?: if they do, there not saying anything.
What makes you slip up: depression
What makes you strong: pictures of skinny people
When did it start: last november
What do you see when you look in the mirrors: ugly,fat,stupid,worthless,annoying
Is it for attention: sometimes i wish someone would notice
Are you the fat or the thin one in your group of friends: fat
Are you depressed: yes
Ever tried to commit suicide: thought about it
Ever cut yourself: yes
Ever been to a psychologist: no
Lost weight: 6 pounds
Gained weight: 4 pounds
Do you drink: yes
Do you smoke: no
Do you take drugs: no
Does your weight affect your mood: yes
Do you weigh yourself daily: when i get the chance
Have you ever fasted: yes
Have you ever skipped a meal: yes
Have you ever thrown food up: no
I am—
[x] Anorexic
[] EDNOS
[] Bulimic
[x] Self diagnosis
[] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[] drinking something (Water)
[] eating something
[] under 100 lbs
[x] starving myself
[] vegan
[x] vegetarian
People…
[] ask if i’m anorexic/bulimic
[X] call me fat
[] say i’m skinny
[x] say i’m ugly
[x] talk about me behind my back
[] force me to eat
[x] say i eat too much
[] wish I’d eat more
[x] don’t know i’m anorexic/bulimic
[] have tried to stop me
I wish…
[x] I was thin(er)
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself better
[x] i could avoid food
[] i could hide what i am
[x] i was prettier
[x] i could disappear
I love…
[x] being hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[] shaking
[] being weak
[x] losing weight
[x] being anorexic/bulimic
[] green tea
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself
Appearances…
[x] I’m shorter than 5’4
[X] think i’m ugly
[X] have self made scars
[] have a tattoo
[x] wear glasses
[] been told i’m pretty by a stranger
[x] have more than 2 piercings
[] have piercings besides my ears
[x] have freckles
[] am petite
I hate…
[x] when people stare
[x] being asked questions
[x] having to eat
[x] wearing short skirts
[x] being fat
[x] looking ugly
[x] feeling this way
[] fat people
I need…
[x] people to stay out of my business
[x] more friends
[x] someone to know
[x] less food
[x] more water
[] gym membership
[x] to lose 30 lbs
[] to lose 20 lbs
[] to lose 10 lbs
didn’t eat today about to do some exercises. i really hope i can lose at least 10 pounds by 1Ds concert on the 24th.
i haven’t done great so far today. i had chips and a subway sandwhich but im going to do better tommrow. not eating anything untill i feel im going to pass out. it just isn’t worth this pain i feel 24/7. nothing will be right untill im skinny.
ate so much today and went to the gym for like 40 minutes. sucks to suck! urg..
i ate enough for a army today. so from now on what i am going to do so that i don’t eat is whenever i have a craving to eat i will come on here and type all the reasons why NOT to eat. it might help. I think it will make me think and hopefully do the right thing. i want to look good for the 1D concert. so i have about 28 days to slim down. I want to really badly go to the gym tommrow. but no car. so this sucks ass. boo hoo!
drank alot of drinks. only had that cupcake. CW:133
had a cupcake today. I hate myself for it. i downloaded some apps to keep track of losing weight and to learn my BMI one says im overweight and one says im almost overweight, i want to be UNDERweight. I don’t care if it’s unhealthy i just can’t stand being like this anymore. I can’t wear anything without looking like a hippo. CW:unsure but asuming around 140 GW:100 Height:5’3
failed miserablly yesterday. today is a new day!
Haven’t been staying true to myself. I’ve had a rough couple of days. My parents are pretending like i don’t exist and it’s hard when they truley could care less about you. I’ve been in my room all weekend and haven’t talked much. I really can’t go on like this anymore. I need to be happy. I DESERVE to be happy. I just hate myself so much. Nobody asks me to hang out anymore. I don’t have any friends and summer is almost here. Just one more week. What am I going to do? Spend it all alone in my room? Most likely everyone hates me. And i don’t blame them. I am annoying, stupid, terriablly ugly, and such a bitch. I just can’t wait to get out of this goddamn town. Just one more year. If i make it that far. Anyways haven’t eaten today thank god. Really need to start losing weight. I mean I weigh 134 at 5’3. What a fucking pig. I hate myself so much. I just cant bare to be alive right now. But i’m going to try and make things better. Not like i haven’t been trying for the past 2 years. But whatever. Nobody cares, but they will.
