my fresh start
Weighed myself today.
140, i couldn’t believe it. i haven’t been this weight in almost a year. it was very depressing, but it did open my eyes to what i want and how to get it. this time is for real. no more giving up, no more saying i will start tommrow. this is it. this is the day my life will change forever. i plan on losing 60 pounds. because that is what will make me happy. and i plan on doing it in less then 3 months. i am gonna starve myself. and it will work i have done it before. i did only lose 10 pounds, but it did only take 5 days. i also didnt workout last time i did it, and i am going to workout this time. 7 times a week, 3 hours a day. and if i cant go for 3 hours, then at least 1 hour. no matter what. and i had a realization today. food is actually quite disgusting when you think about it. it has never done anything for me execpt cause me to gain weight, breakout, loose hope, and make me depressed. so goodbye food. this is my parting to you. i can’t and won’t ever be there for you again.( yes i will eat when it is ABSOULTLY necessary, but other then that, no. ) my goal weight is 80 pounds. i am 5’3” so that is a common weight for my height. when i reach it i am going to eat only fruits and veggies, and only water from now on till i die. i want to be at least 100 pounds by the time school starts, which is in 47 days. my parents might get suspicous but i think i can throw them off. also i am going to new york with only my mom next week and she will be too busy to notice i am not eating. then on the 20 i am getting my wisdom teeth out so for 3-5 days i wont even be able to eat! so yay for that! then when school starts i can bring a lunch and throw it away! easy as that…
well hopefully it works out! i am gonna blog my workout and weigh in every day.
